Poems for my Father part 3

Authentic Counseling Blog image of tableHere is the third and final poem dealing with the death of my father.
As you will see, I had moved into a much different place about my father.


My Father At My Table (Father #3)

I’ve fought so long

So hard to deny

With angry, righteous cries

Your place at my table.


Your pain walled away

But alive and leaking

Through so many cracks

To form the dark parts of me.


All you were, I cannot be.

I’m so much more aware, alive

I do so much more than survive

Easy it would be

To reject all you are.


I could not imagine you

Hurting and alone;

A child holding off the terror.

Carrying your father’s wound.

As I carry yours


When I look closely

At the parts unseen

Your child peeks back.


While your wound is not mine

I can accept your humanness

And your presence that helped

Shape the man I’ve become.


Come, break your fast

At my table.

I have more to learn

More tears to cry.


You are welcome,

My father.

I pray I will be welcome

At my son’s table some day.

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