Father and Son








My Father At My Table
By Dr. Christopher Mathe

(8-10-98 to my father)

I’ve fought so long

            So hard to deny

With angry, righteous cries

            Your place at my table.

Your pain walled away

            But alive and leaking

Through so many cracks

            To form the dark parts of me.

All you were, I cannot be.

            I’m so much more aware, alive

I do so much more than survive

            I long to turn toward the light and reject all you are.

I could not imagine you

            Hurting and alone

A child holding off the terror.

            Carrying your father’s wound.

            As I carry yours

When I look closely

            At the parts unseen

You child peeks back.

While your wound is not mine

            I can accept your humanness

And your presence that helped

            Shape the man I’ve become.

Come, break your fast

            At my table.

I have more to learn

            More tears to cry.

You are welcome,

My father.

I pray I will be welcome

            At my son’s table some day.

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